I don't know why I'm feeling agitated. I have had the last couple of days off and despite that  I am overwhelmed. All I want is to be alone. People are driving me crazy! I don't want this blog to be a ranting  page but I'm just feeling a little cornered today and I work until Wednesday! I'm going to take a deep breath and smile and wave through the rest of the weekend.

3 hours later

Well... seems all I needed was to have a good cry. I feel so much better now.

Morning Has Broken

Restlessly lying in the dark I wondered why I couldn't sleep, tossing and turning, frustrated that I couldn't get the rest I knew I needed. I decided to make use of the time and go for an early morning jog.

5:45 I crawl out of bed put on my running shoes and a pair of shorts and I head for the door. As I step out into the fresh morning air I know I have made the right decision to get out of bed a little earlier. The heat of the day has is yet to be felt, fresh morning dew is on the grass, misty fog is in the air, the birds are singing. I begin to jog. The fog, the dew, the birds, green grass, the sky painted with its light pinks, purples, even a little orange, taking it all in is just so invigorating, soul stirring, inspiring.

Mornings like this cause me to wonder "who am I that you are mindful of me".

I Want This

We've been married for 16 years. We've both gotten a bit rounder than we used to be, but what isn't hotter has grown warmer. I have to admit I never really understood how growing older would be when I was younger. Let me see if I can explain what I mean.

When I see my wife now, it's like looking at a person in a time warp. She has a certain smile that takes me back to a memory of our honeymoon. There is a mischievous grin that puts me inside a moment when we were still dating. She has these little hairs that curl right below her ear that make me think of the first morning I woke up with her next to me.

There are so many layers now; such a deep, wonderful complexity about how she makes me feel when I see her. She's like a succulent dish that has been prepared by a master chef. Or a rich, velvety wine with that perfect blend of buttery smoothness and dry finish. She is my heart, my love, truly my better half. She helps me to be the kind of man and father I've always wanted to be.

Am I attracted to her? Oh, god, yes. No matter how we look now, I see her across all the years as a kind of gestalt vision of who she is and what she means to me. She is the most interesting and attractive person I've ever had in my life. No one else even comes a close second.

DaGoodBoy

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